What Remains
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DAY 3 OF THE YEAR OF EDMOND
Today Edmondine (the fake one in the Chambre) congratulated me for reclaiming Jarlheim from Tothiliand. She said it was a great first step in restoring the health of my mind. I knew not what she meant at the time, but now I realize she was trying to change me. After the congratulations, Edmondine said the next step in my recovery was to accept the non-reality of Jarlheim. “What do you mean?” I asked her. “It is great that you found this method of coping,” she said, “but to fully recover, you must now accept that it only exists in your imagination.” After all this, she still believes Jarlheim does not exist. She claims my imagination invented it on Day 871 as an escape from the Chambre. When I looked back, I indeed found on Day 871 that I discovered the truth. The Chambre is fake. It is the dream—the nightmare—of King Edmond whenever he slumbers in Jarlheim. Thus, to prove my point, today I scratched out the entire entry for Day 871! No longer will I pretend this Chambre has any merit! Jarlheim is more real than the Chambre, more real than my past life. Here I am a ghost; there I am a hero. |